Don't Just Do Something, Sit There: The Epiphany

About two weeks ago, I experienced an epiphany that literally made me stop, relax and live in the moment. This epiphany was the first time I actually had one and called it an “epiphany” in my mind.

I woke up early to get ready for class that morning like I do every day. I was on-time but I had been rushing to get to my class like I usually do. I am from New York City and I am so used to grabbing things and heading out the door as fast as possible. On that particular day I had been boiling water for my green tea. I ran down the stairs with my jacket on in a hurry and prepared my tea. I poured the tea into a traveling mug, only to discover that the mug was broken. I decided that I would have my tea anyway so I poured it into a glass mug. I tried to drink it fast but it was too hot.

After sipping the hot tea I came to the realization that I would have to sit down and let the tea cool off before I drank it. I knew that I would have to sit and drink the tea slowly which frustrated me. I soon realized I had nothing to be frustrated about; I had plenty of time to spare. I sat down, drank the tea and took that moment to observe my life and surroundings. I didn’t dwell in the past or think about the future. All that mattered at the time was the moment. This was so freeing because I had always been very confined in thinking of past and future from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. The epiphany allowed me to take in each moment and it has literally made each day so much better.

Seeing Yourself How Others See You! (Positively)

I struggle with this BIG TIME!. I have a self esteem area that I need to work on where I feel as though I'm not worthy of certain things. I begin to doubt myself in a lot of the things I do and it has an effect on me. My closest friend doesn't even know this...

I have friends who think highly of me and respect me for my character and what I do. I know this but I have to GET MY SHIT TOGETHER in order to face the fact that I am worthy of the best and I need to exude confidence as well as humbleness. I recently had a conversation with one of my good friends and she told me how a lot of people do not look back on their lives to see what they have done for others and accomplished for themselves. We get caught up in the illusion that we haven't done anything important because there is no constant reminder.

The lesson is:

1. To know that you are capable of greatness regardless of what anyone says!
2. To remind yourself that that you have done and will do great things!
3. To Be confident!
4. To understand that the things people think about you should be none of your business!
5. Realize that you're a good person and you are worthy of the good things that come your way!

Take these into consideration and live your life!

The Fiber of my being! (RANT)

I have officially hit a point where I am asking myself "Am I wasting my own time?" I put just about every fiber of my being into eating, sleeping and drinking acting. It has become very much associated with ME as a person. I don't mind this, but it has gotten to the point where the people who are close to me (mostly friends at home in NYC) see me as just "The Actor". I have literally put my life on hold in order to excel in school, study and develop my craft, I'm losing my life it seems. I have let so many experiences pass me by because I perceived them to be distractions .

It turns out that those distractions would have helped me as a person, as an artist. Actors thrive on LIFE EXPERIENCE, what the hell am I doing? I'm doing myself a disservice by cutting people and experiences out of my life...I have done it so much ...to the point where the things I have cut off have begun to outweigh my actual life... Even though people who know me may or may not agree...this is how I feel at the moment.

Photo By: Natalie J. DeVore @ Devore Vision